Hearing backed up stories, covering the truth with lies.
It's unbecoming.
I felt as though being around you guys would be nice, no guess it wasn't for you guys. Idk but if it was a chore, just say it. Have some balls....haha.
I felt at ease, but idk it's confusing.
I know. I know, what the truth is really.
I don't need to hear it from other people. It's not really cause I'm stubborn, okay yeah maybe it is.
I am still an open book and all, but there are loop holes within the lies.
I trusted people, and they turn out to be what I thought they would be. Mendacious.
Kind of a disappointment.
Its not only one person, it's a few.
Did I deserve this? Perhaps.
Karma does come around.
Dwelling with this situation is not worth it really.
Yeah we have fun times, but idk who you really are at times. You probably think you know what hun, but you don't. You know a good chunk but it's not a lot that you could really understand the whole me.
You question, keep questioning. You couldve asked me.
I find stuff out the wrong way. Yeah I'll listen, but the lie doesn't cover itself whole.
It's kinda immature. Whatever, I'm kinda tired of this high school stuff.
I'm going to read a book or something, it's less of a hassle.
Pinky Promises immature? It's a shame that they are broken.
That friendship we have girls, idk anymore.
I feel you judge behind the conversations, who doesn't it's hard to find legit people that don't stutter with sentences because it's what I want to hear. Don't say it if you don't mean it.
One strike, maybe more? Idk but I'm kinda crawling back into my hole.
Trust is out. What's next?
I'm lucky to have the people that are there for me when I need them.
Even if they aren't in the same room, or they are 200-500 miles away. They are there, I'm grateful.
I miss home.
