Nothing seems to be

So I came to conclusions.
I'm very lucky and that I should be grateful of the people I have in my life.
People keep me sane from the insane.
So today is the last day to party before studying for finals.
Quite exciting.
Garrett persuaded me to go to the party with him since we haven't party together throughout the first semester.

I'm excited, getting ready and all.

So the update.
Some people do not seem to be who they realistically seem. It's annoying and depressing. I try not to judge people because EVERYONE is different in their own way and are capable of holding something within them that is special. I totally dislike how people just judge others without giving that person a chance.
My great friend told me while we were having our "girl talks" [I love them] the other night that "I know you say you don't judge people, but right now Suz you are judging."
Yes, I did judge that person. I guess it's because I am afraid to be happy? Afraid to get hurt. It's finally time for me to let go and just see how it goes. It has been a while. All the doubt is perhaps going to trace the bubble but I just have to deal with it. That person is a great person. I am lucky to have that person in my life. He is good to me.

Moving on...
The other person in my life is utterly MENDACIOUS.
Ridiculous actually, and I am so sick and tired of it. I don't have anything to prove to that person. Hence I don't trust that person because the person Judges me before even knowing me. After a couple of facts about me that person has figured me out. Yeah. Okay.
So I was like you know what? She could just keep living her life in her fantasy world, and I shall do my own thing.

It's College for goodness stake, not high school. I understand that some people are still stuck in their high school lives, and it's hard to grow up and become young adults however, I can not tolerate drama especially when you have no time for it.

Yeah think since you think you are smarter than me. Why don't I you figure out why I don't tell you stuff? Talk as much? It's because you lost the trust I gave you many chances to earn. Not one chance MANY. Yeah I tried to see the best in you, and don't get me wrong you are a great person sometimes but most of the time you just want to stomp on other ppl to get what you want. It's :(
Its okay. I learned that I have nothing to prove to you anymore. I am who I am, and if you think you know me already and without asking me questions you just answer me. Dear you only know me for what a couple of months.
I didn't open much around you cause you make those smart ass comments.
Yeah keep going.
If you want to fight me on days. Bring it.
I shall be ready with my awesome gun [psh jk] but seriously do it.
Push my buttons.
I shall annihilate you, cause you don't even know the half of it.

I keep quite cause I don't want to cause anymore drama that there already is.
It's quite annoyig dear.

I'm feeling a lot better now :)